Hashimoto, I am your biggest nightmare
Hi. My name is Hashimoto's.
I am an invisible autoimmune disease attacking your thyroid gland, so you will most probably end up with underactive thyroid and many unwanted symptoms
I will now be part of your life.
Others around you can't see me or hear me, but YOUR body feels me.
I can attack you anywhere and any way I please.
I can cause severe pain or, if I'm in a good mood, I can just cause you terrible migraines.
Remember when you had energy to run around and had fun? I took energy from you, and gave you exhaustion. Try to have fun now.
I can take sleep from you and in its place, give you brain fog and lack of concentration.
I can make you want to sleep all the time or I can cause you insomnia.
I can make you feel cold and tremble internally or make you hot when everyone else feels normal.
I can give you swollen hands and feet, swollen face, swollen everything.
I can make you feel very anxious or very depressed, too. I can also cause other mental health problems.
I can make your hair fall out, become dry and brittle, cause acne, cause dry skin, the sky is the limit with me.
I can make you gain weight and no matter what you eat or how much you exercise, I can keep that weight on you.
I can also make you lose weight.
Some of my other autoimmune disease friends often join me, giving you even more to deal with.
If you have something planned, or are looking forward to a great day, I can take that away from you.
You didn't ask for me. I chose you for various reasons:
That virus or viruses you had that you never really recovered from, or that car accident, or maybe it was the years of abuse and trauma (I thrive on stress.) You may have a family history of me.
Whatever the cause, I'm here to stay.
I hear you're going to see a doctor to try and get rid of me. That makes me laugh. Just try. You will have to go to many, many doctors until you find one who can help you effectively.
You will be put on the wrong medication for you, pain pills, sleeping pills, energy pills, told you are suffering from anxiety or depression, given anti-anxiety pills and antidepressants.
There are so many other ways I can make you sick and miserable, the list is endless - that high cholesterol, gall bladder issue, blood pressure issue, blood sugar issue, heart issue, heart palpitations? That's probably me.
Can't get pregnant, or have had a miscarriage?
That's probably me too.
Teeth and gum problems? TMJ? I told you the list is endless.
They may tell you to make massage, to sleep well and exercise properly so symptoms will go away.
They may tell you to think positively, they will poke you during countless blood tests, but MOST OF ALL, they will not take you seriously when you try to explain to the endless number of doctors how you feel. Try telling them how debilitating I am and how sick you really feel. In all probability you will get a referral from these 'understanding' (clueless) doctors, to see a psychiatrist.
Your family, friends and co-workers will all listen to you until they just get tired of hearing about how I make you feel, and just how debilitating I am.
Some of them will say things like "Oh, you are just having a bad day" or "Well, remember, you can't do the things you use to do 20 YEARS ago", not hearing that you said 20 DAYS ago.
They'll also say things like, "if you just get up and move, get outside and do things, you'll feel better." They won't understand that I take away the 'gas' that powers your body and mind to ENABLE you to do those things.
Some will start talking behind your back, they'll call you a hypochondriac, while you slowly feel that you are losing your dignity trying to make them understand, especially if you are in the middle of a conversation with a "normal" person, and can't remember what you were going to say next.
You'll be told things like, "Oh, my grandmother had that, and she's fine on her medication" when you desperately want to explain that I don't impose myself upon everyone in the exact same way, and just because that grandmother is fine on the medication SHE'S taking, doesn't mean it will work for you.
They will not understand I impact your whole body from head to toes and each cell, each organ are affected and need correct medication and mostly time..
But I will stay with you…
The only place you will get the kind of support and understanding in dealing with me is with other people that have me.
They are really the only ones who can truly understand. I am Hashimoto's Disease.
Source: Author unknown (translated from German language).